If I Ever Get My Chance

it might not be the right time

and i might not be the right one..

i know it takes years to build up trust,

and only second to destroy it..

but i'll make the best of the best i can

and i'll be better for it if i ever get my chance..

You'll Be Gone.. ( You'll be My Memory )

It's always has to grow, just leave them all behind
hope we'll never found, cos all my health was here
and the disease gone feel fine now..

the pills get operated, without you by my side
no smell from your breathe, and smile from your face
it's has to changed, just leave them all behind

and hope we'll never found..

just sleeping with no wake and it's all I ask to you, my dear..

you will be the memory, hide your pain carefully
choose your grave immediately, and hide your pain immediately..

cos time running fast without you notice,
that your life getting short forget your good time first..

If I Told You, Would You Care?

It took me a while to figure what I feel

and you didn't realize, I'm lonely..

what if I told you I loved you so..
would it move you enough,
to even act as though you've heard?
what if I said I was leaving..
would you still find a reason

to ignore my every word?
what if I told you I need you,

would you still not agree to even offer me your hand?

and what if I said I was dying,

would you keep on denying my attempts to be your man?

if I told you, would you care? (do you care at all?)
if I told you, would you still never be there?

I'm the one who waits here for you..

I'm the one who'll always adore you,
and I'm the one who's dying for your call..

Don't wanna be Just a Memory to You

Maybe the sadness comes when it's least expected,
it shot out of the dark, and slammed in our face
the hurt it brings can't be stopped,

and the hurt it brings can't be cured..

feels trapped inside of your eyes,
gleam like stars above, emptiness inside..
caught inside of your arms,
warmer than the sun, and emptiness so full..

maybe the love that you have for me,

is done and dead, and so far away
but you're still here in my head,
you're still here, and you'll never leave my heart..

I always remember you and me when we used to

laugh all night until we fell asleep..
and i know we're through
but i've still got thoughts of you left inside my head,
hmm well... in my head...

but though we've grown apart,

I'll still be there for you..
Cause I don't wanna be just a memory to you..

Walking Alone

.......

maybe sometimes I need to apologize,

I need to admit that I ain't right..

and sometimes I should just keep my mouth shut.

now I can't speak, and I lost my voice,

speechless and redundant..
'cause I love you's not enough,
I'm lost for words..

and I'm still walking alone...

Sick and Blue

I was lost in conversation,

and I was lost in contemplation

I'm sick and blue..

but there's nothing all I can do,

just make my fears come true..

Another Day Left Waiting

Huff.. another day left waiting,

I'm alone in my room with no calls from you.

and another day left crying,

in my room with nothing left to do.

tryin' to call you up, but you let me down..

remembering you said that it's not right,

and you said it's over now..

I thought that this would never end,

just things were so clear but they fell through.

High hopes of problems never failed

and just thinkin' of the best..

( stand still annoyed with no one around )

you're graceful, your grace falls, down around me in my eyes..

You're lovely, your love leaves, so easily in my eyes..

I Wish, I Can't Remember..

I can't remember my own sanity.

Gods love ain't forever and he'll set us free.

Thought I had to tell you,

we came from the breeze but I dont care forever.

I dont need a thing and I wish can't remember...

How do I Explain...??

The endings the same..

past mistakes that I've made, come back to haunt me.

I made a mistake, and I wish I could take back everything that I did

I wanted to tell you, what really happened, but how do I explain this?

Promise me, you will be there until the red light will change,

I would wait forever.. And please promise me,

you will stay here until the darkness will fade, and I'd wait for you..

Swear.. I wanted to tell you, what really happened,

but I just don't know how do I explain this?

how do I explain everything?

Shrinking Universe

Cast your eye tears on to me,
And I'll show you what you really need
Give too much attention
And I'll reflect your imperfections..
Purposeless survival,
Now there's nothing left to die for
So don't struggle to recognize
Now the cruelly heart-felt suicide..

Can't you see it's over?
Because you're the God of a shrinking universe..

Life is Not Distant

Life is not distant like that, it is mad..

Just like a star that explodes, or like notes..

You should pretend not to know, It is slow...

Ruins

Wise one comes, she makes my dizzy away

but she killed me with her sight, and then ruin fall on me..

she turn on the light, and she makes my day so bright

then now the light are off, I surrounded by inky dark..

Friends or the enemy..

cos she's the same, always stand in front of me

will she feed me when I'm drown? or she kill me when I'm young?

I'm just sit here to catch, and take much as you can throw to me..

Don't you know, it's not so great in here..

wise one comes, and than ruin fall on me...

I am...

I'm two people,

one you know but don't like,

and the other one you don't know

and you will don't want to..

I have two faces,

one of which you know, me with happiness

and the other one I never would show..

" I'm just the man who has everythin',

has everythin' to hide.. "

Peeping Tom

I'm careful not to fall, I have to climb your wall

'cause you're the one who makes me feel much taller than you are..

I'm just a peeping tom, on my own for far too long

problems with the booze, nothing left to lose..

the face that fills the hole, that stole my broken soul

the one that makes me seem to feel much taller than you are..

I'm just a peeping tom, on my own for far too long

troubles with the gear, nothing left to fear..

with every bet I lost, and every trick I tossed

you're still the one who makes me feel much taller than you are..

I'm just a peeping tom, on my own for far too long

problems with the booze, and nothing left to lose..

" I'm weightless... I'm bare..

I'm faithless... and I'm scared... "

Man That Lives Inside

he has no twin, he has no brother

he's all alone, a lonelyness soul

tonite he found another's

try to break down his alter ego

he's there lying on his weakness

coz the other's was mad, won't give him forgiveness

he felt scary because the other's was angry

a man that lives inside, he's already woke up tonite

he dont even know who is he

man that lives inside

looks like his opposite

that will never be torn apart

* thanks to carraya...

It's me..

Hi !

My name is Fahmi Fauzi Ahmad

I was born with the wrong sign,

in the wrong house with the wrong ascendancy

I took the wrong road, that led to the wrong tendencies

I was in the wrong place at the wrong time

for the wrong reason and the wrong rhyme

on the wrong day, of the wrong week

and I used the wrong method with the wrong technique..

There's something wrong with me chemically

and something wrong with me inherently

the wrong mix, and in the wrong genes.

I reached the wrong ends by the wrong means,

it puts the wrong plan, in the wrong hands

the wrong theory for the wrong man,

the wrong eyes on the wrong prize

the wrong questions and with the wrong replies..

And this is me...